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SOUL PURGE

by Hateful Decay

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1.
FADING TO BLACK 01:50
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From the blackness of space I put the gun in my face All my fears are erased I don't mean a damn thing And it's gone in a flash And I'm fading to black And I'm fading to black And I'm fading to From the blackness of space I feel myself out of place I am just a mistake This just a mistake Even with all these hues I am nothing without you I mean nothing to you I am nothing to The stars don't shine as bright When I dance alone in the night And I still hold you close Dance with me I'm your ghost And I know this isn't right But I cry every night And I'm fading to black And Im fading to Black And I keep waking up I put the gun to my face Colored hues are erased From the blackness of space From the blackness of Space I am fucking erased In the blackness of space I am fucking erased I mean nothing to you Even with all these hues I mean nothing to you I keep fading to black I keep waking up
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CAN'T SLEEP 03:24
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Error Error Corruption detected Dream sequence unstable Initiate Ouroboros I'm awake I see the stars I'm awake I feel my heart I'm alive I try to die But here I am another night An endless loop I can't escape I self destruct I melt away My bones and body turned to dust As I return to up above And as it all fades into black There's something here that pulls me back And I don't mean a god dammed thing I close my eyes and self destruct And no one even gives a fuck I tear apart this dying heart And all that built just to decay I called for you and no one came And who but me is there to blame? I cried for you and then it rained And maybe it was best this way Why can't I just fall asleep And why can't I just fall asleep I'll melt myself into the stars Erase myself, this broken heart I'm just trying to let go Find a place to rest my soul I'm fading into black Embrace this dream I won't come back I put the gun up to my face I ended all my fears and pains And once again I wake to see Stars and darkness surrounding me And why can't I just fall asleep? My soul is fragments incomplete I'm tired now I need to rest I lived this life I did my best I'm afraid to be alive I'm afraid to feel alive I'm afraid to feel this pain I'm afraid of all this pain I just needed to be loved I'm afraid of being loved Dream Sequence Corrupted Run program S O U L P U R G E
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ANTI LIFE 02:14
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Hello? Failure to initiate Ouroboros Soul Purge in progress Do you wish to continue? Yes All loops purging Singular life line achieved Zero Hour confirmed I'm afraid to be alive There's poison in the air and sky There's waves and noises melting minds And everything is built to die My bones are leaving me behind The sun is done it says goodnight And from the darkness in my mind The dream I had is still alive A demon from the endless sky Returns to haunt my sleepless nights An entity who hunted me Returns to take what's left of me And I'm not sure that I'll survive I'm afraid to be alive I don't feel love I don't feel fine All this pain I don't feel right I'm afraid I'll lose this fight I'm afraid to be alive I need someone to save my life And end this cycle set me free My soul is dying inside me I'm bleeding out all of my hues And who am I if I'm not doomed?
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EMBRACE 02:36
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I'm trying to bury the hurt I'm trying to ignore the pain I'm trying hard not to melt I'm trying hard just to stay God damn I loved you so much Why did it end up this way? I gave you all of my love And nothing will be the same I burned this dream to the ground I cast this darkness away I thought I finally escaped I know that was my mistake But in my heart I could feel An other worldly embrace This is my last time alive Colored tears run down my face I hold you close my mind You hold me close as a ghost The stars will fall from the sky And you will know that I'm gone Don't cry no tears for me now I'm sorry I had to go One last dream of your embrace And then the lights guide me home I know what's waiting out there Neon lights guiding me home And at the end of the colors There is the mighty black hole I fear the darkness ahead I need you to hold me close I'll close my eyes one last time And you'll say bye to this ghost
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THE END OF THE COLORS 04:03
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The stars are falling from the sky I place your hand inside of mine I cry, we cry we're going to die The ending days have just arrived And as the heavens start to fall The cosmic clouds begin to cry There is no hope there is no fear Please hold me close the end is here Please hold me close the end is here Neon light wave washes over I pull you a little closer Feel your heart it beats with mine I cry, we cry, I hold you tight I'm a ghost lost in the night I am a ghost lost in the night The stars are falling from the sky I place your hand inside of mine I cry, we cry we're going to die The ending days have just arrived And as the heavens start to fall The cosmic clouds begin to cry There is no hope there is no fear Please hold me close the end is here Neon light wave washes over I pull you a little closer Feel your heart it beats with mine I cry, we cry, I hold you tight I loved you more than you could know All this love I am a ghost And here I am lost in the night I felt so pure I felt so right The end is here now hold me tight I cry, we cry, this is goodbye
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AND EVERYTHING IS OKAY 03:14
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I'm spiraling I'm burning down This downward spiral Round and round The hurt goes on there is no cure And all of me is so impure I hate myself and all this pain I want to make it go away Pink and blue I'm suicidal I think I'm doing fine though How far up does the sky go? I wonder can I fly though? Crystal ball is so insightful The tarot cards don't lie though I've covered up my crystal scars I'm dreaming up here with the stars And all this colored blood I've spilled leaves me no love And now I disconnect I have no meaning left Pink and blue I'm suicidal I think I'm doing fine though This is my masquerade I think I'm doing great All eyes are on me now I can't look broken now You'll see me melt away There is no saving me Pink and blue the skies will cry now I'm giving up this life now Forever out of place Deserved to be erased I don't mean anything I'm happy to be unmade The lights are starting to fade I promise I'm not afraid And I'm all by myself And now I drift away The universe consumes me And everything is okay And everything is okay
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DANCE AWAY THE PAIN 03:11
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And you can dance with me Come now and dance with me Until I skip a beat Come now and dance with me I'll dance away the pain The neon scars are here to stay I'll dance until I feel okay My dying heart will keep the beat I'll dance and shake and move my feet I'll dance until I feel okay The stars will shine and clouds will cry I'm dancing till I feel alright I'm dancing my way through the night And all my troubles, fears and pains Mean nothing as the music plays And even though I'm going to die The music makes me feel alright I'll purge my soul under these skies And everything will be alright And you could dance with me Come dance under the stars I'll dance away the pain Come now and dance with me And you could dance with me Come dance under the stars I'll dance away the pain My depression melts my brain I'll dance away the pain The neon scars are here to stay I'll dance until I feel okay My dying heart will keep the beat I'll dance and shake and move my feet I'll dance until I feel okay The stars will shine and clouds will cry I'm dancing till I feel alright I'm dancing my way through the night And all my troubles, fears and pains Mean nothing as the music plays And even though I'm going to die The music makes me feel alright I'll end my life under these skies And everything is not alright And you can see my scars While dancing in the dark And you can see me cry Dancing my through the night And you can see my scars While dancing in the dark And you can see me cry Dancing till my last goodbye I'll dance away the pain Colored tears run down my face And god damn I'm scared to die But I can't handle all this life I'll hide my pain behind the beat I'll dance and shake and move my feet I'll dance until I melt away I'll dance until I feel no pain And don't you cry And don't you cry Dance until I feel alright And it's okay And it's okay Dance until I feel okay And I'm okay And I'm okay Danced until I slipped away And I won't cry And I won't cry Dance away the pain tonight I'm not okay I'm not okay Dance until I feel okay It's not alright It's not alright Danced until I died tonight
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THERE IS NO CURE 01:42
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Erase myself Erase myself This did not help Erase yourself You are corrupt There is no cure Erase myself I'm so corrupt I'll kill myself I'll self destruct And maybe then I'll be okay When everything has gone away (Dancing under the stars) And nothing means a god dammed thing We're built to die there is no cure And parts of me are so impure That even when I fade away The impurities will still remain (Dancing under the stars) I tried to cure this damn disease My demons had other plans for me A creature from the endless sky My dying heart and neon lights And now I'm giving up tonight (Dancing under the stars) 7 years melting my soul My colored blood now monochrome And dying dreams are coming back The stars above are turning black And all your love can't cure my soul (Dying under the stars) Dancing under the stars tonight I know it's my last day alive I'm crying as the music plays I'm dancing till I feel no pain Erase myself under the stars And nothing cures a dying heart Erase myself Erase myself Erase myself
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GHOSTLY SOUL 02:06
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CORRUPTION 01:37
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Take apart this dream I can see, I can see All the stars in the sky Maybe I don't wanna be alive And I just wanna be free And I don't wanna feel pain Another ghost Another ghost I am so close I am so close I'll purge this soul I'll purge my soul Take apart this soul I can see, I can see That it's so corrupt And I am covered in blood And I am so corrupt There's so much fucking blood I am so corrupt This heart's no fucking good
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FLESH AND BONE 01:43
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If I'm honest I may weep I'm dying and my soul is weak And many tries with suicide This broken man is still alive And I don't want to make you cry I tried my best to stay alive But nothing stops what has begun The self destruction is almost done All this blood across the stars The final beating of my heart The ending of my masquerade That everything is all okay And father you weren't here for this And damn I really needed this I wish that you were still alive I wish you didn't end your life So father if you hear this now I hope you feel my love somehow What has begun must be complete I'll purge my soul and fall asleep And maybe I'm a hypocrite I'm over feeling all this shit I'm sorry that my love is late I'll shed the pain of flesh and bone I cry these tears I'm all alone Father will you guide me home And maybe will you light the way Beyond the stars and endless sky I'll drift into another life And here I am, I'm all alone I'll be the one to guide my soul Beyond the stars and past the night I'll purge my soul and end this life Everything is not okay Drifting far and far away Everything is not okay
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DRIFTING 01:32
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I will drift into the stars (Life signs critical) Embrace the cold and lonely dark (Corruption rampant) Beyond the skies awaits my end (Extensive blood loss) A mighty dark and endless void (Critical condition) This black hole I can't avoid (Heart status - failing) Purge my soul of all this pain (Entity detected) All my colors torn away (Danger) My body's broke I can't go on (Life signs fading) / Dreamer you were never strong I'll leave you with my final song
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PALE BLUE WAVES & BLACK TIDES 04:12
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All the blue has left the skies Pale blue waves are now black tides In my dreams I felt something This broken heart it starts to scream I don't feel a goddamn thing More machine than anything Corruption kills the best of me This damn disease has bested me Monochrome the color's gone All the days bleed into one Am I truly even here? So much of me has disappeared Gaze into this endless void This black hole I cannot avoid Staring back not recognized There is no hope behind these eyes I'm corrupt there is no cure I was once so young and pure More machine than man I cry I'm not sure I recognize I'm afraid of letting go No repair these parts once gold I will fall into this void All my pain will be destroyed A shooting star right through my heart Alone I drift into the dark And maybe here I'll find some peace The stars will hold me as I leave All those that I loved may cry As I embrace this endless night I shed the pain of flesh and bone I cried my tears that drown the world And endless this black hole may be But maybe there's another side Somewhere so far where I can hide Rebuild myself from stars and dust and parts of me that were long lost And maybe I can find the sun when this has all been said and done And maybe all I loved and lost will be there at one final cost To tear away and purge my soul I drift myself into this black hole I drift myself into this black hole
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SOUL PURGE 05:57
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7 years melting my soul I drifted myself into a black hole And I have tired to fix what has decayed All that haunts me and all that ails me And I'm too afraid to say this without a disguise This is goodbye Is it Just me? Alone At sea The sea Of stars Alone My heart Beyond The stars I'll fail This heart So much To say I wish You were here I lost The time I close My eyes I dream I cry This is Goodbye Where did the time go? Where did the time go? Where did it go? Where did it go? And all that I am Undone as man Melt down to bones My ghostly soul All that hurt has healed A shooting star Right through my heart I'm letting go I'm letting go I purge my soul I don't mean to cry This is goodbye I purged my soul I'm letting go And all I loved I am undone You'll be okay I was a mistake I PURGED MY SOUL I'M LETTING GO I'M LETTING GO I'M JUST A GHOST AND ALL I LOVED I AM UNDONE AND HERE I CRY THIS IS GOODBYE INTO THE HEART OF DEATH ITSELF BEYOND THE STARS AND THROUGH THE NIGHT I DRIFTED FAR BEYOND THIS LIFE THERE'S NO WAY BACK I WON'T COME BACK AND NOW I'M FADING INTO BLACK THE DYING DREAMS HAVE ALL COME BACK THE ENTITY RETURNS FOR ME THIS SUICIDE WILL PURGE THIS SOUL AND ALL MY BLOOD IS SPILLING OUT MY DYING HEART IS GIVING OUT I FOUND THE CURE INSIDE A DREAM THIS IS THE END AND NOW I'LL SLEEP

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Continuing where Dream Dimension left off SOUL PURGE is a self destructive, impure and imperfect album. This album finishes what Eclipse and Dream Dimension started and will serve as my final album. These 14 tracks are very personal and were written nearing the bottom of this downward spiral I have been on. I hope you enjoy this album when it releases fully, it's not perfect but it isn't meant to be. It's meant to be as human as I could make it.

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released August 31, 2021

Nick Ciresi - Vocals, Instruments, Mixing, Mastering
Tank Tankertin - Keeping the vibe

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Strange musician and cat dad from Minnesota

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